Like many research quests that seem at first fruitless, after hundreds of hours of research, Carroll saw the painting he remembered in a gallery when he wasn't looking for it, after he has pretty much given up. His research lead him to the artist's diary and unpublished biography.
On page 79 we read, "At the end of the wall, an easel stood in the corner holding a portrait. I gave it a glance and started on past,. but then stopped abruptly, as if running into a glass wall. Whirling around, I started open mouthed at the portrait, reliving an experience I'd had once when I grabbed onto a live wire without knowing it, the current freezing me in my tracks as huge voltage surged up and down my arms and legs."
On page 89 we read, "My whole belief system was no longer just teetering. it was falling. Everything around me suddenly had such a surrealistic feeling to it that I could have been in a Kafka novel...."
The artist lived from 1852-1917. He was a contemporary of John Singer Sargent. The book contains images of the artist as well as examples of his art.
LOOKING FOR CARROLL BECKWITHThe True Story of a Detective's Search for His Past Life
C 1999 by the author
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